Back from the edge of the holidays

Do you really want to know? I'm not a big fan of the holidays for it's commercialism and false good tidings and stuff. I worked security at a department store for a long time and saw the worst side of people and I still see it. Well I haven't worked there for a while, but i still see the worst side of it. Saw two fights xmas eve due to people being stressed in traffic, one they pulled over and got out and i kept drivin so i didn't see what happened next, the next two people were screaming at each other on the side of the road. My family has it's usual tension and my mom and aunt don't get along. I must say my aunt was acting pretty horribly to my mom and she was pretty ungrateful (meaning no thanks to anyone) for her gifts then left. I'm done with her pretty much. One of my nephews is at a stage where he's pretty greedy right now. I guess I should say selfish and it's just a stage he's at but some of the things he says or does eats at me like nothing else and breaks my heart. I know he doesn't mean them and it's not my place to say anything (my sister does) but he's the oldest and one of my 3 favorite nephews so it's a bit painful.

My mom says things equally as hurtful but because I'm financially indebted to her, she seems to think it's okay to say snide things to me and not me to her. So there was plenty of that. Honestly, I like the holidays, and I absolutely love seeing my siblings and their kids, it's the rest of the family thats a pain in the ass. I honestly want to find a new place to spend it so if any of you want someone to help cook and clean, I'm available, no distance to far. In fact the furthur you are away from my mom's the better excuse i have to not be there. i don't like getting gifts so you don't even have to buy anything for me, just feed me. With that said, I'm not going to go into any more detail. I've been negative enough this month and need to make the turn.